This morning Mom called me saying she knew this will sound unbelievable, but she did not know where she was. She further said she had a dream that she had breakfast with people she didn’t know. Though she knew it was a dream, she still did not know where she was, even though she knew she was in her room.
From there she reverted to what happened in October 2015. As she did then, she asked me this morning if I was with our cousin (who lives in another state), and when we were coming home. It was difficult for her to see that her dream was not reality, and that being in her bedroom was real.
All this made me realize that I need help; help with taking care of her, as I fear she will soon start to wander, another characteristic of dementia.
As for me, I keep flunking the class of finances, I keep spending too much. This adds to my already frustrated state. My reaction to it all is eating. Not eating the right thing, and eating too much of it, as I feel my facial cheeks increase in size.
And yet God does not leave me while in my present state. Through the pressure of it all, He reminds me of the gifts He has placed inside me, and not to forget about them. Because of being a caregiver, I wonder if there will ever be a time when I can present them to the world; He assures me that time will come. But He also gives me another point to consider,
“The greater the pressure, the greater the promise; the greater the pressure, the greater the power.” When the strength is gone, and you feel empty is when God provides the power needed to continue. Continuing through the tension, and through the pressure.
But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us. We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body. II Corinthians 4: 7-10
Having heard this from Pastor Steven Furtick during his message this morning I am thankful that God encouraged me today. It helps me to continue pursuing and living, and trusting the answers will come. Actually, being pressurized enables me to recognize and focus on God’s power, learning how to be empowered in the process.
You may be going through the same type of pressurization. I hope you grab onto the power God has given while being strengthenized for your journey.